~~MY LOVE~~

" THE GIRL I LIKE, SHE DONT LIKE ME,

THE GIRL THAT LIKE ME, I DONT LIKE THEM"

This theory always happened to me... OMG, sick of it.. I really so difficult to find a girl that I like her and she like me too de? or, my fate is always like that? haiz.. DONO.. only GOD will know..! sad case.. 

Everytime, when I go to Gurney Plaza la, QueensbayMall and etc ler, so many sweets couple pathor at there... they keep pass by my eyes..!! *HURT tiok* and *Xian Mu* them nia.. At that time, I m asking myself, when I just can macam them like that? having a sweet time with my girlfriend.. aiks.. 19 years de, never try the feeling before, damn curious nia.. xD

I know now is study time, but I am also ready for love too.. Now is 2009 already, not zaman logam or zaman dinosaur de, Pathor, just a normal things for teenager nowadays.. I m a normal teenager too, also got that feeling and I also need 1.. everyone need love, include me..! 

Honestly, I feel myself very OK 1, dono is my xing xin or too zi lian d, but i really feel myself very OK!! Face ok, still kan de shun yan, not very antao and not ugly... Body lehh, I feel that my height OK d, and my body shape not very fat macam pig lidat wad, quite fit too.. hahhahaxx.. xD.. Later Belakang ler, still pass... Jia Jing, erm.. can say is rich if compair to the ppl that not that rich, but poor to compair with jutawan, still okok lar, still get a B for that..!! xD... my Attitude?? I feel my way to treat a girl still pass mar, but maybe I face some problem, Poor Communication. Maybe I dono how to talk sweet (tian yan mi yu), and some communication problem, so maybe they will feel boring when with me. of coz, the way that I treating a boys and a girls are totally different. Sometimes, I really feel I treat a girl very very good liao... But dono they got feel it anot.. 

Actually I have many question in my heart,  

Do you know that I like you? 

Do you know that I can do anythings because of you? 

I very guan xim and worry about you, you know?

I am trying to protect you, you know?

I not sure you know anot, when I meet you, I have a special feeling, excited? happy? maybe without a word can describe it..

but the questions I not dare to ask and not dare to say it out, because scare will make things bad.. haiz.. 

when my phone ring, I hope that is your call and sms, but... the probability that you zhu dong find me is very less gua.. sometimes really hope that you will call and chat with me.. I know, boys should zhu dong, but, sometimes, not really..!! 

sometimes lebih ki siao, hope that when my house bell's "ding dong", is YOU... This one sure very surprise to me, but... will it happen?? 

I feel that the THEORY still with me.. I guess that I am not her type... so not dare to memusnahkan now de relationship.. I understand that the distance between me and you is very far, maybe you just treat me as your normal friend only, but I hope can improve it, become a best friend or best of the best friend enuf for me (I mean if I really not your type la, if I am your type sure wont just hope just become best friend la, of coz hope can together e mar).. xD.. but, no body will know what happen tomorrow, so maybe, got QI JI... hahahaha... 

~you are not alone, I will be with you, though we far apart, you always in my heart~

I will be with you always.. and of coz will always support you.. xD.. 

See your smile, I enough edi, Loving a ppl bukan wan she happy mehh? wish you happy always..! xD.. - as long as you happy, I anythings-

Maybe this call DAN LIAN ba.. (single love).. maybe it will make me susah sedikit, but I will try to enjoy with it.. Protect and caring you silently is the things that I can do for now ba.. still the same word, AS LONG AS YOU HAPPY!! 

My dad tell me, If that girl got feeling to me, I can easy to chase her, if she din have feeling to me, difficult to chase and if let you chase dao, wont long too e.. but I not sure about that la.. haiz... SHUN QI ZI RAN ba.. maybe 2mr I will meet my another half lehh? hahahaaxx... need pray luu..!! xD 

LOVE, really cant force it.. Mian Qiang no Xing Fu.. I think not only me facing this type of problem.. Because, maybe she is your type, but you are not her type, maybe he is your type, but you are not his type.. So, if the couple that can be together and loving each other, then really must appreciate each other lo, because really very difficult to find two people that loving each other 1.. must gambateh o..! xD

~ Who is that girl really not important ler.. I said is Rainie Yeung, u believe meh? hahahaa... the aim I write this post just wana write out my feeling only, (yik support me, xD, he ask me dun scare and dun paise, just write it out my feeling).. xD..~ 

我终於还是说了一句爱上你
还记得那个微凉夜里
天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音 像舞动奇蹟

你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心
别傻了快点喊停
你那麽冷静 忽远又忽近

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终於了解
原来为爱流的眼泪
也是种甜蜜滋味

只想爱你
当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己
可以为爱那麽坚定

只想爱你
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避
Sorry 我还是不会放弃 爱你

secret: actually i not 100% understand what i m writing also..!! hahahaha..

-retired yiNzE-